Sunday, July 19, 2009

meet Charlie.

I have nothing of substance to say, so by all means meet Charlie.
One of the characters, that has taken up much of my time.
Charlie is a 30-something photographer.
The following is from Charlie's blog.


You can never forget that look, they get in their eyes.
It’s full of doubt, a hint of trust, and a little sadness.
I always feel guilty for asking. Like a pimp, of sorts.
She lifts her arms above her head, and proceeds to pull it off, like a child undressing for the first time.
Although anna was a woman, I saw she knew nothing of seduction. I saw her in the back of unkept cars, where the only foreplay was a wet tongue.
It was also, becoming anna strutted around as most women do, all knowingly, and there it was she knew nothing. I’d laugh, but I’d rather capture this.
Anna was vulnerable, as she’d probably said to herself, she’d never be.
The breaking of anna.
Her skin the color of olive.
Thanks to her ancestors from Sicily.
Two mouthfuls of breast.
Anna said every woman in her family, owns these.
Anna would later tell me, how she went from bandaging her breast a young girl, to letting them hang free.
I’ve never known her to wear a bra.
When you saw anna you saw, her blouse/shirt, and two round nipples.
She’d brag about how she only owned one bra, her Sunday bra.
See on Sunday she’d go to visit her family.
The territorial provider men, and the modest big busted women of her family.
A good Sicilian girl.
Once cool as a cucumber.
Once her thoughts, you could read only in Brail, or Korean.
Now her thoughts smothered on her face, like that red lipstick.
The breaking of anna.
Soon I’d build her.
Soon she’d be truly knowing, or at least unarguably knowing.



My problem is I fall in love with my objects.
I fall in love with moments.
Not women.
I was falling for anna.
And no it wasn’t her breasts, for once.
I introduced myself for those two reasons.
She’d thrust her chest out, then chastise you for paying attention.
Anna said she wasn’t looking for a soul mate, or the love of anyone’s life. But, yet a man who’d look in her
Eyes, instead of you know where.
‘you know where’ I’ve never known any woman to call anyplace on her body
‘you know where’.
Her body language was one of confidence, and freedom.
She seemed to move about, as freely as the breeze.
I’d dare you to find effort.
But her words, were immature, even childish.
I love her eyes, she wants to be loved for other than her breast.
Her breast robbed her of her own beauty.
Even I, a ‘trained’ eye, only noticed her breast.
I didn’t notice her lips, her raven hair, how her body grew moles in the most delicate of places.
She was more.



She never let go of that darn pillow.
Most of the shots, were those of her back, neck, shoulders, and of course of her face.
After the shoot was done, she’d quickly dress, with her back turned to me.
I held the twenty dollar bill between my fingers.
As she reached, and tugged I held on to the bill, then she’d meet my face with all of the fake ‘know’ and intimidate me to adding another twenty to her pay.
‘good-bye Charlie.’
When was the last time someone told me ‘good-bye’
‘bye’ yeah
‘peace’
‘later’
And some leave without it.
‘goodbye anna.’


What do you think?

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Thursday, July 9, 2009

Daydream #541

He is a great photographer.
And I am his muse/lover.
We have a ions of chemistry, and have a dynamic relationship.
We just get each other.

This is my current day dream.
Every now and then, I get so bored with my own life.
I sort of create another. It started out with me being a kid with
a massive imagination, but it hasn't left me just yet.
It's kind of complicated.

Before him I hated taking pictures, and now I'm a camera whore.
The hardest thing though, is not posing.
He finds beauty in the most ordinary things.
I've never felt more, apart of something.

In my day dreams, I'm everything I'm not.
Confidant.
Outspoken.

And all this to say, does anyone else does this?

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Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Picking my head up from the sand.

Didn't you just lose it?




I've been writing a lot.
Thinking too much.
Really just escaping, but I'm back, I hope.

I still have not finished reading Falling In Love With Natassia.
Hangs head low.
Probably adding the book, to my never finished collection.
I'm really disappointed in myself.

Honestly, the book re-fired my interest in writing. I owe it a lot.
But it's very long winded, dedicating pages to boring conversations. A chapter, to prove a point. And I can almost picture how it's all going to end, which doesn't entice me to finish it.

I now have a tumblr , to accompany this blog.
Treat this, like my twitter, which I barely update.

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Monday, July 6, 2009

Adventures in Flickr.


march 2.
Originally uploaded by Megan McIsaac.

As a 'writer', and sub-par creative being, I love to

cruise Flickr for amazing pictures. I've never picked up a

camera, but I can still appreciate the photographer's' and their

patient models, some living things, some not. There's so much on

Flickr, it seams scattered, until you find you niche. I can't explain the type of

photography style i prefer, but I can show you.

P.S. Beautiful, right?

I tried to post a few pictures, but Blogger/Flickr was

giving me a hard time. Flickr never fails to inspire me, maybe it can

inspire you too.

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Thursday, July 2, 2009

New York

Sometimes when I dream, I dream of New York.
I couldn't tell you why I focus upon NY, when
I try to imagine my life somewhere else.
I'm from Florida, maybe if i told you I live near Miami,
that would sound more exciting.

I've had this thing about, what if i dropped
everything nothing, family and friends
and move to a place I know no one, and
I may not even have a place to lay my head.
To see if I could actually push through.

Maybe with my great parents, and my good life
I've had it a bit too easy, never had to
struggle, never met a real challenge.

Maybe thanks to the many novels, movies and
TV shows, I have this romantic idea of NY.
I know NY, is more than Manhattan(which I'm
sure I could never afford), you have the city, the hood, even
in rural areas.

In truth I'm not that brave, I could never, would never.
And excuse my french, I'm too much of a pussy (no pun
intended,lol).

P.S. Let me go, before I turn my most-loved blog, into some
random place where I say '4' instead of for, or '2' instead of to,or too.

Randomness...
Grown folks, it's not cool to text or Twitter, with the above.
You're better that that, we're better than that.
Or else buy a cellphone with QWERTY.
Or either grow patience, believe me Twitter will wait.
:P

I'm trying to configure, if you will how to do a
proper respectable I'm-horny-and-I'm-sick-of-being-celibate blog.
A blog, that is profound, explicit and yet I'll be comfortable with NOT deleting it.
Perhaps?

intro...
this sh*t is getting old y'all.
maybe that's it, I'll f*ck, d*ck, and s*ck my way through it.
and this time it won't be for comments.
um,okay.

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